torn

The other night I was hurting,
but I did not find you there.
The other night I was hurting,
on the brink of great despair.

Sometimes I wish and wonder -
and I find my heart wants more.
Sometimes I'm lost and wondering
amongst the raging storm.

A simple plastic smile is all it takes
to turn the questions away -
but no one seemed to wonder -
just how I cared today.

Behold the beauty of wonders untold.
This life has nothing and I feel quite alone.
I realize I am not my own...
and that is where I die.

Yet sure enough I find my breath,
and in Christ I am ALIVE!!!!!!